Sunday, January 21, 2007

Life is at a state of constipation

Well, here I am again. I decided to post another entry before I really start to forget my blogger account password.

It has been definitely a while back since my last entry. In retrospect, sometimes I have no idea what to update with regard my life.

Nevertheless, I feel a chink in my neck every time I procrastinate updating my blog. In a way I know how much fun it is to re-visit the old memories that I've logged here. This blog consist of the best and worse of my life for the past 3 years. For every special date, event or anniversary; I would flip back these digital pages and ask myself what was I doing, where was I or who was I with.

Christmas, New Year, Valentines, birthdays. One year's of comparison to the previous one.

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Anyway, so what have I been up to lately? Nothing much. Work, work, work and more work. I know that I have complained about being too busy before. But these days its different. In some strange way, I feel that the work I do these days is much more meaningful.

Being busy for meaningful reasons is much more fulfilling that being busy doing monotonous "chores" on a daily basis. These days; I solve so-called "mysteries" and "miseries".

After some time, one tends to adapt to one's profession. Personally I feel its a good thing that I've been kept busy. I have forgotten about the bitter taste of being alone and of course; being single. No more sad lonely nights depriving and feeding-in self pity on Saturday nights.

Strangely, I have lost the interest to be hip/happening and longing to go on dates during the weekend.

Dont get me wrong....I am still looking for the right one. And I do enjoy the company of friends and going on casual dates. But then again, when you're that busy, who has the time to think about love?

I always tell myself.......when people complain about work; they see the day as one huge busy day. And from time to time, they take a breather during the day - smoke breaks, coffee breaks.

From the way I see it, my work starts on Monday......and it goes like a unstoppable-unwavering-locomotive till Friday. You wanna talk about breaks and breathers? The only breather I have is when I get home to sleep at nights.

Of course, things wouldnt be so busy if my company didnt launch that crap of a service they call broadband. Dont get me started. I could go on and on and on and on to condemn the damn thing.
Still.......life is still mundane for me. It has always been. The only difference is that I'm only busier these days and I take satisfaction of my current work.

Oh one thing before I forget too. Kinda happy with myself with one aspect. You see, one of my New Year's resolution is to stay as far away as I can from my ex. Like I said in the last post....she's nothing but trouble.

And...relating to this; she tried to contact me today via MSN for God-knows-how-long. Immediately she asked me about getting a driver's license in Singapore. I just told that I dont know much and thats about it. I didnt want to get into any long winded conversation with her and I didnt even wanted to know why she's getting a driver's license. Most probably she wanted to brag about getting a new boyfriend with a car and all.

Well, I can say is....screw it. Dont come and tell me about your life, cos I'm not interested.

Yeah, people can say bygones be bygones. But this gal has practically ruined my life once. No doubt we are still "friends"; but she still has the means to hurt me. Finally now, I'm stamping my foot down and say "No more".

No more emotional turmoil from her.

So thats about it. After a short hiatus from blogging, thats the update I have for now. Other than all of the above, the only rant I have is a slight case of constipation. And even for that.....I went out to buy a pack of Vitagen earlier. Been gushing it down ever since.

Lets hope the toilet bowl comes calling soon.

At this point in time.....my life reminds an old song; Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik. Some of you might remember it. Sad, desperate and unrelenting. But sounds DAMN GOOD.

C'est la vie.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

yeah...just work..bokband will bok your mind off those unnecessary thoughts....

things will come by naturally....when the time comes...dun complaint you prefer your status right now...

heheh

Slut Bro..