Miss...Miss...Miss....ugh....

What the?!?!!??!

I just came back from work and I was so excited cos its C.S.I night!!!!

But to my disbelieve, C.S.I has been cancelled to make way for the Miss Universe pageant!!!! What nonsense is this!?!? I can't believe that Channel 5 would cancel the best thing in home television and air Miss Universe instead!!!!!! What the?!?!? Why???? Why??? Why!?!?!?

Who on earth would want to watch 80 beautiful women in their bikinis prancing on stage dancin.....dan....da...da.....

Ok, ok...I take it back. It ain't that bad after all.

Anyway, whenever the Miss Universe pageant comes to mind...I can only think of 2 words. Ok..I have to get this right...

*ahem*...World Peeeeeeeace.....

Cliched right? I sometimes wonder which Miss Universe came up with that stupid answer. After years of scrutiny, the Miss Universe pageant has grown old and people seemed to have formed a mentality that it was all just a gathering of the world's greatest dumb blondes competiting who's breast is bigger.

Still, over the years, time and time again, people seem to inject so much glamour into the pageant. Making it such a big deal and its a life and death kinda thing.

Though, I must admit its never really easy to be participating in these kinda of pageants. The sleepless nights, the behind-the-scenes bitching and cat-figthing, the constant monitoring of their physique, being prim and proper....and all that jazz. Sigh.....I bet those girls go thru hell. I wish I could be there to comfort and console them through all the hard times and also......ok, ok...I'm fatasizing again.

Back to the point. Again, I guess the big hoo-haa about the whole pageant is actually over-rated. Its too much obsession and emphasis invested into the whole thing. And the term Universe?!?! Isn't that taking it a little bit too far???? First there's Miss World, and then there's Miss Universe. Now, from a lay-man's point of view? I don't see a friggin difference. Is there a hierarchy? Is there a flow-chart that shows the different levels of beauty? Sheesh.....does it mean if the gal that wins have to rule over the whole universe???? And the one who got Miss World have to bow to her?

"Duh...hi Miss Universe, I'm Miss world. How are you? The world's just fine. How's the universe doing?"

What the f*ck?!?! The more I think of it, the more ridiculous it is!!!!

Now, I'm starting to feel the whole thing is just plain stupid. Miss Universe....crap. Sigh....maybe I'm just pissed they cancelled C.S.I..... Then again.......geee....since I have nothing to do....err....Miss Peru! Miss Vanezeula! Miss Ecuador! Miss India! Miss Germany! Here I come!!!!!!!

Tricks of the "Trade"

OkaAaAAAaaAAAaay....

Today I'm gonna touch on a topic thats a lil bit......touchy?

Ok girls and boys....err...and all those in between. I'm sure all of us has at some point gawk at a hot looking babe or dude as we're walking along Orchard Road, MRT stations or even along the 5 foot path.

Its just simply irresistable, isn't? The eye wanders and we are constantly hooked on "pretty" figures that catches our attention.

So, lets start with the girls.....how hot do you think you are? Easy.

Recently, I was on my way home from work with a friend. And as we were walking along the MRT underpass; I noticed every guy that walks pass my friend would try to catch a glimpse of how she looked like. And then it occured to me......that's what we guys do all the time! Some guys just can't help it. Its like this sexy silhouette is just right in front of you...and you just cant help but to "admire" it. To put it crudely? Its like dangling a carrot in front of a donkey.

Think about it...if you're walking behind this young hot thing....you'll wanna know how she looks like. True? So, what guys normally do, is that they speed up their pace and try to see whether if she's pretty; as they walk pass them. It usually goes something like this....

Personally, I would call this the "full time football match". If the chick in front of you looks hot from the back....she's won the first half. And then....there's the second half when you see the.....front. Ok...I shall not elaborate more.

Hence, the moral of the story is.....girls. If you ever catch a guy walking pass you and turning their heads to look at you......you have the goods.

Next...this is something more useful for the guys.

If ever you are in the same situation; and you spot this SERIOUSLY curvaceous babe and you you can't seem to see if she's pretty.....then here's a tip for you.

For heaven's sake, when walking behind a gal....stop looking at her ass. And start looking.....at the guys coming from the opposite direction. Make sense? Well, simple. You can get an indication of whether she's really pretty if all the guys coming from the opposite direction can't get keep their eyes off her when they pass by. Additionally, if you see a guy with his mouth wide open, his jaw touching the floor and also drooling at the same time...then I guess she's a winner.

But then again....the gal might just have a huge mole on her nose. Either way....its worth a look.

So, for all of you dudes and babes out there...I hope this information will prove useful when the time calls for it. Its just a small pysche of how guys think I guess.

Disclaimer: The author shall not be liable for any damages (physical or mental) caused from any miscommunication, misconception, misunderstanding or confusion between the 2 genders. Any practice/malpractice of the guidelines provided above are entire at your own risk. And if at any point of time any parties want to file a complaint towards the author? Screw you.

Wake up, old man...

1. Exhaustion
2. Lethargy
3. Inaccurate strokes
4. Blurry vision

Ladies and gentlemen, the above are the symptoms of a person who has not played badminton for the past 2 years.

Sigh....I'm getting old and out of shape.

Today I took part in the company badminton tournament in the mixed doubles category. Initially it was really a frustrating start to the game when I can't seem to get my shots right and I keep on making silly mistakes.

And it also doesn't help to feel exhausted after just 30 minutes of playing the first match. Man, I'm seriously out of shape. From the days of hiking up Pantai Keracut, organising traning camp and not sleeping for 3 days......I'm seriously out of shape. I can already tell that tomorrow morning I'm gonna have a tough time waking up for work. Damn, shouldn't have applied for OT.

But later on, when I played the next match, I started to get my game going and my strokes back in form. But it was already too late. The co-ordination between me and my partner was off and the other team capitalised on that. Before we knew it, we were already ousted from the competition.

Still, with all said and done.....I really enjoyed myself. Its been a long long time since I played badminton and I missed it alot. Its the rush and you can feel the adrenaline pumping with every stroke. I remember when I used to play it so much that my body will react and move by itself when the shuttle-cock is served back at my direction. The mind doesn't think...its just sheer insticnts.

Looks like I'm far, far, far from the level I used to play. But what the heck!! Hahahahah...as long as I enjoy the game.

Hmmmmm....talking about badminton; I also miss the time when I used to watch the Thomas Cup finals on TV every time its played. I remember the heroes and the legends of yesteryear which really made me love the game so much. There was also this once where me and my dad went to watch a live Malaysian Open at the Penang PISA stadium. I was so excited about it I was like a kid! But nowadays, the current Malaysian players really.........errr....cannot make it.

However, one thing's for sure. I really have to go on a diet and do more excercise!!!! Time to get those endorphines pumping!

Time too wake up, old man......you ain't that old.

Inside Your Heaven

I've been down,

Now I'm blessed,

I feel a revalation coming around,

I guess its right,

So Amazing,

Everytime I see you I'm alive,

You all I've got,

The sun and the moon light,

All my dreams are in your eyes,

I want to be inside your heaven.

The words above came from a song from Bo Bice,....the American Idol finalist. Strangely, I can't seem to find any information as regards to this song in the Internet.

But after I heard this song.....it really struck a cord with me. It really made me feel that......its nice to be in love. Something which I have not felt in a long long time.... This song really made me remember the blissful days when I was in love and it really meant something to be loved by someone else.

Just the other day when I was cleaning my room, I stumbled across some notes my ex used to leave around the house for me. I wasn't really affected by the notes, but more of the signages of the notes. She would use words like darling, sweetheart, dear......And I was thinking, I really miss the feeling of being in a relationship. Its nice to hear someone calling you all those sweet nothings.

Also, I kinda miss all those stuff couples do together; grocery shopping, cooking, playing games, teasing each other..... sigh.

I sometimes do think will I ever be able to find love again. Will I be able to love someone with all my heart and want nothing else but her happiness. Then again, in my heart I feel I am not good enough for any girl out there.

But I guess that's my unicorn...my myth. Love is something I have gave up looking for long long time ago. I'll just let it come by itself....even if it comes.

But its nice isn't it? To be deliriously in love.

The River

Recently alot of things have been going through my mind.

One being that I'm wasting my time. And I feel that I should be doing something else.

Today is my off day. Unusually, I'm not in office working the OT shift. I was so pre-occupied with so many things that I forgot to apply for OT. And hence, on days like this...when I'm at home slacking. I feel that I'm really wasting my time. All I do is eat, sleep and watch TV the entire day. And the problem is, I don't know what to do with all the time I have. Somewhere in my mind, I feel that this is not what a successful person should be doing.

Normally for people who are capable and successful, every minute of their time is invested in some self-improvement course or planning and startegising their future wealth making ideas. For me......I'm plain lazy. One day I guess....laziness and procrastination will be the death of me.

Subsequently, I also don't know where my job is leading me. Been thinking alot about my current job. The prospect seemed bleak and uncertain. But sometimes I kid myself and start to give myself false hope. I always tell myself....if I don't get out of this job anytime soon....I'll have to see it through to the end. If I put in 100% into it...maybe one day I can make it big in the call center industry. Then again, I also think that with the kinda of 100% effort I put into it....I can achieve so much more in another job.

Still, I keep on telling myself life is full of surprises and unexpected twists. I believe there are better things in store for me if I'm patient. And all things will come by itself and fall into place. Somebody once said this to me, "Only worry about how you are going to cross the river when you get to the river. Only then, you will know what to do." Complacent as it may sound, I find that its a good advice. When the time comes, I'll know what to do.

Oh yeah....and finally my articles have been published in the company newsletter. I must admit I was pleasantly surprised with a complimentary letter for one of my articles. Apparently, I was told that the article I wrote was bold and humorous..... I was really happy about it.

A friend even joked to me that I should quit my current job and start my career as a columnist. Sheesh...must say that the thought of that has never really entered my mind. I have never taken my writing seriously and I write for the fun of it. And also, I know for a fact that I'm not that good. I know my own level of writing and I still have a long long long way to go~~~!

So, for now...I'll continue my struggle with my current job. And when I come to the river, I will then face the problem of crossing it....and I know a solution will soon present itself.

A year older

Its been a while...

Ever since I celebrated my 24th birthday, haven't updated my blog at all. Been so caught up with so many other things, I didn't have the time to write anything constructive for the past few days.

Still, as for my birthday celebrations? Happy to report I had alot of fun.

It was a relatively peaceful birthday I had. On the eve of my birthday, I went quitely in to the night. There wasn't any fanfare, there wasn't any countdown, there wasn't any big party or drinking. There was just....me, at home, surfing the net.....chatting with some friends online. I kinda liked it.

The next morning, I woke up early to do some grocery shopping and marketing. I needed to buy some fresh stock of poultry and vegetables for the "small" steamboat dinner that I was organising for my colleages. And after that, throughout the day.....I watched TV, slept, ate my lunch...and slept some more.

And then finally at around 5pm, I started to get ready and started cooking.

Sigh =)

Preparing for steamboat really brings me back to alot of memories. Always have alot of good memories when it comes to steamboat. Nevertheless, Chun and Marcel came around 7pm. We started off first; when later Miki and Alan came around 9pm. And next, I had an unexpected visitor. A pleasant surprise really. A friend of Marcel, Shu Lynn came to visit me with the insistence of Marcel I think. But it was really nice to see her. The more the merrier.

It was really nice. Being around friends, having a quite dinner seemed like a really good way to spend my birthday. Later, Cassie, Jeo and Alzari came to join in the fun.

Hehe.....I was kinda happy that we manage to finish off the food that I bought earlier. And for the first time in all my life...I got 3 cakes for my birthday! Thank god all of them were different types of cakes. So I didn't mind it at all. There was a Tiramisu cake (compliments of Shu Lynn), a ice-cream cake (compliments of Alan and Alzari), and finally....a cheesecake that I ordered myself!! And all I can say is simply......deeeee-leeeee-shiiiiii-ussssssss!!!!

All in all, I really enjoyed my birthday this year. It was alot of fun just having dinner with friends and chatting the night away. Hmmmm....things have seem to change over the years. I used to be so excited about birthdays and usually I would like to celebrate it with a bang. I would be out with friends on the eve, I would have grand ideas of going out, clubbing, spending the entire day shopping or something like that.

Oddly, this year, I celebrated it differently. Either I have lost the magic of celebrating birthdays....or I am simply....getting old.

May the force be with you...

*Grins*

Guess what? That's right.......I've watched Star Wars III : Revenge of the Sith!!!!!!!

WoOoOOooOOOhOOoooOoOO!!! Call me a nerd! Call me a geek! I'm proud to be one!!!!

All the geeks and nerds around the world rejoice as the Star Wars saga came to an end. And it did...with a bang.

The 3rd installment of the Star Wars saga was simply fantastic. No doubt that the pace of the movie was really frantic; and I'm sure that many fanboys and film critics will have their words about the show...but I loved it. The movie might have its minor quirks as it actually tries and rush through, tying up as many loose ends as possible. Still, if you look at the bigger picture and see it as a whole, together with all the other 5 movies...then you'll see a masterpiece at work.

I guess, the best part of the movie for me was when Anakin Skywalker donned the Darth Vader costume. It was simply nostalgic to see the costume back in action after so many years of absence from the silver screen. And the moment that black shiny helmet was put on......there it is.....the mighty, the evil, the dark, the malevolent....Lord Vader. And everything else falls into place.

However, enough about Star Wars. I actually wanna dedicate today's posting to a few special people which really made a difference in my life. They are Rena, Carmen, Kerwynn and Marcel.

You see, I was going to organise a small get-together at my place on the 20th. And unfortunately, Carmen has to go back to KL a day earlier to attend to her father's business. So, she invited a few of us to her place last night for dinner. Just for the sake of good old times and also give us a chance to catch up with one another.

To my surprise, when I got there...Carmen actually took the time to cook quite a majestic meal for us! The food was excellent and we really enjoyed ourselves catching up on our lives.

But what happened next almost broke me down in tears. They surprised me with a birthday cake.....

Sigh.....

I was so happy that I just couldnt believe I had such good friends. I don't know what I had done to deserve such wonderful friends. And I really wanna tell this to all of them. I will never forget them. They have helped me through rough times and was really there for me. Through think and thin. Through good and bad. They have always been there.

When I blew the candles, they asked me to make a wish first. Silently, I kept quiet....and made my wish.

And I later on just told them one thing. And wish...for simply nothing. Cos, I have all the things I wanted and I could not ask for more. You see, last year was really a bad year for me. And sometimes, I just couldn't believe how things have turned around. From utter sadness and torment....to sheer joy and happiness. Things are so different.

I told them that night....I might not have alot of money. I might have alot of the things I want. But one thing I am happy to "not have"....is sadness and problems.

Life is so carefree these days though I have a few qualms. But I could never be happier. I'm just so grateful that I don't have issues and problems in my life now. That's enough for me.

What I do have....is great, great, great friends.

An Uneventful Day

Uneventful. That would be the word I'd describe my day. And that's exactly the way I like it.

Had a really late night sleep last night. Went over to Holland V with Cassie, Angela, Marcel and J-Jeo. We spent most of our time at Breko after Wala-Wala had to close at 2AM.

From Wala-Wala to Breko, we really had a good time. We shared alot of info and gossip since that now most of us are being seperated from each other. Me and Cassie were in the Buddy System, Marcel's in the Corp Hotline, Angela's with the rest of the CSO's on the floor and J-Jeo in re-service.

We left around 4.30AM and when I got home, I was so tired I immediately went to bed after taking a shower. And then....I woke up today around 1PM.

Woke up today feeling really good actually. For the first time in weeks, I had a Sunday off and I wasn't working OT. The idea about not going to office for 1 day puts my mind and ease and I just wanna stay home and relax. And that's what I did.

Initially, I thought of going out the get lunch when I woke up. But then, suddenly I had the urge to take a whack and continue my Jade Empire. And you know what?

As I continued to play........the next thing I knew....it was already 7.30PM!!! I was playing Jade Empire for 6 and a half hours straight!! The problem was, every level that I manage to overcome, I thought it was gonna be the final level. But it wasn't. Still, I was so determined to finish the game that I ignored my grumbling stomach and presevered!!!

And Ladies and Gents...I'm proud to say I've finished the game!!! I conquered the Jape Empire in just 3 days!!! Wahahahaha!!!! Man, it was satisfying.

Alas, I went out to get some dinner (finally!!) and came back to do some spring cleaning. Took some time to re-arrange my book closet and clean up my room seeing that I'll be having some guest over in a few days time.

All in all, the day was uneventful...but still satisfying and productive. Manage to get alot of rest and also clean up my house which I have been procastinating for some time.

Now, only if the day would last a little bit longer.....

Start date: 1977, End date: 2005

Long, time a go, in a galaxy far far away......sounds familiar?

Well, this introduction line has its resonance in history. And it all started from a movie that began almost 20 years ago....

STAR WARS.

Finally!!! The 3rd installment of the Star Wars saga is now here and I have already bought the movie tix to the preview sceening on the 18th!!!!!! Star Wars fanboys, eat your hearts out!!!!!

I seriously can't wait. As a fanboy myself, I have always loved Star Wars. From the very first movie, Episode 4: A New Hope, I have been watching and hooked on to Star Wars ever since. I must admit, at that point of time, I feel that Luke Skywalker was a bloody sissy....and the only character that was on everyone's mind is Darth Vader a.k.a Anakin Skywalker a.k.a Luke's dad. And this guy really has mental issues. I mean, this guy is pure evil personified. Just think about it.....there has never been another villian like him in history of movie making. This guy could scare the shit out of you just by the the sound of his breathing!! And you don't even have to see him yet! I'm sure every Storm Trooper knows what I mean. With his infamous Death Choke, many many Imperial Officers or Storm Troopers will shiver with just the sound of his breathing. This guy really give asmathic patients something to cheer about.

Here's the chronology of the Star Wars Saga.








Looking back at Episode 4, 5 and 6, you will notice that sometimes the costumes and digital effects are kinda corny....but from the help of the illustrious George Lucas, he has re-released the box-set of the first trilogy in all its glory. Then again, some would really ask...why did he start the saga from Episode 4? Isn't that stupid? Well, I'd say George was a genius. He started off Episode 4 for the primary reason that he simply didn't have the cinematic technology to start filming Episode 1. Instead, he started Episode 4 off so brilliantly that you didn't realli need the first 3 episodes. And when you get to Episode 6, you're just dying to see the first 3...cos you want to know how it all began.

From a broader perspective, Star Wars really have its inclinations with the world today. We can learn many things about it. Ultimately, its a fight between good and evil; the Jedis and the Sith Lords. The Force and the Dark Side. And its a story of only 1 man to be exact. Luke Skywalker? No. Anakin Skywalker.

Many enthusiats initially got the wrong idea that the whole saga was all about Luke Skywalker. But actually the story revolves around his father. From episode 1, it has all about how Anakin was found, joined the Jedi Order, succumb to the Dark Side....and at last found his way back with the help of his son.

Man oh man....I'm really damn excited about watching it on this 18th. I simply can't wait!!!! Everyone knows Star Wars. Its a household name. Its a religion (Its true! have read in a forum that some people think that the Force actually exists!). Its an epic. Its a way of life. And the lightsaber? Up till today....the coolest weapon ever fictionalised!!!! There is non other like it! Whenever you see a Jedi whip it out on screen with that zhhhaauuuuuu sound effect, sheer excitement! You know for sure that they're gonna do something cool with it.

But if you haven't heard of Star Wars before....please, I beg you. Shoot yourself. In the head. Twice.

Soon! Soon! Very Soon!!!

My, my, my....look at the date.

And I know exactly what that means.......its just another day.

Hahahaa....well, actually it means that its only 8 days away from yours truly's birthday!!!!! And to be honest, I am looking forward for this year's birthday.

I really had a rough birthday last year which is filled with sorrow and sadness. I was thinking seeing that it was my first year in Singapore and I had my own place and all...it would be a great birthday. However, it turned out differently. Very differently. You see.....I had my heart torned out last year on my birthday. The images of what exactly happened still burns in my memory and it still leaves a scar. Some would say, it was all just a co-incidence that my ex broke-off with me on my birthday....and other's would say its just plain cruelty.
I would say......

Nothing.

It happened in the past. It should be left in the past and I have nothing to say at all.

So, this year's gonna rock!!! I have stock up my supply of booze and its gonna be one hell of a birthday this year. I have my bechelor pad....and I'm inviting some frens over for steamboat and some boozin'! In retrospect, I'm really happy this year. Everything's going well, I don't have many worries weighing on my mind, and I can finally truly be happy with the company of close friends. I could not ask for more.....

Hehe...I'm actually in a feel good mood. I have just finished watching The Amazing Race. And believe me, I was at the edge of my seat the entire time! It was really nerve-wrecking to see Uchenna/Joyce and Rob/Amber battling it out till the finish line. There isn't any secret who I'm rooting for....Uchenna and Joyce!!!!!! Uchenna basically has been a stand up guy from Day 1. He believes in goodwill and faith to pull him through to the end. Also, he has morals, values and most importantly; integrity. Something which many people are lacking these days. Not to mention, he's a real good husband to Joyce.....it was so touching to see how supportive of him when Joyce has to sacrifice her hair for the Fast Forward challenge. He's a good man with a good heart. He deserve the victory.

On the other hand? Rob has been a total prick. I must admit that he and Amber played the game well, and they have been extremely lucky. But what I can do without is that damn arrogance!!! Who the F*ck does he think he is? Throughout the whole race he was dissin' people off and steppin on people's shoes. This guy needs to attend Humility 101.

Anyway, I guess all's well, ends well. I'm really happy to see this time.....the nice guy finish first. Truly, an Amazing Race.

Java-fied? C.S.I-fied!!!!!!!!

Ever heard of the term java-fied? Well, its the term used when someone had too much coffee to drink. Well, I'm C.S.I-fied.

I managed to got hold of the latest C.S.I episodes and have been watching C.S.I nonstop for the past few weeks. You name it, I have been watching C.S.I: Miami, C.S.I, and even the new series, C.S.I: New York. On average, I have been wathing almost up to 4 episodes a day. I can't get enough of it!!! Episode after episode, I just wanna go on and on!!

Oh...for the uninitated, if you haven't heard of C.S.I before....go shoot yourself. C.S.I is short for Crime Scene Investigation. Its about these kick-ass forensic experts that solve crimes with their heads and uses science in an ultra cool fashion.....rather than go guns blazing, whack everyone in sight and ask questions later. These guys put doctors and GPs to shame. They can use any tool imaginable to solve a crime. From a speck of dust, to a wad of spit...they can solve the crime in seconds.

One thing I love about these shows is that....you learn something. It teaches you to think logically and cross-reference facts to solve puzzles and mysteries. And also, its educational to a level that its scary! At the end of each episode, you would go...."OhhHHhHHhhhh,....I didnt know that!"

After so many hours of C.S.I.....my head is now full of forensic jargon. After so many episode, I know exactly what they are talking about...things like, sub-dermal hemathoma, cranial hemmorhage, high velocity blood splatter, APHIS, CODIS, ballistics analysis, modus operandi, and many many more. Heeee....did I mention I'm mad about this show?

Sigh....at the end....I would also go like...."when i go up...i wanna be just like that" =)

But seriously...these guys put coolness into geeks and nerds all around the world! Who knew that cinematically a guy looking into a microscope would look so stylish. Still, I guess C.S.I has been really keeping me up all night for the past few weeks.

Can't seem to get enough of it. Have to make sure I watch 1 episode before I go to sleep. Hmmmm...come to think of it....I think I'll go watch it now!!!!!!!

Post-morten injuries, lacerations and blunt force trauma...here I come!!!!!!!

Happy Mother's Day

It's that time of the year again. And being so far away from home, I'm felt kinda guilty not being able to celebrate this special day with me mum.

Honestly, I consider myself to be the luckiest guy on Earth to have a mother like that. She has sacrificed a lot for the family and I guess she has guided me and taught me to be the person I am today. As a son, the last thing I would ever want to do is to dissapoint her. I do not even know am I able to ever pay her back for all she has done for me.

But for today, I just wanna tell her....Happy Mother's Day. =)

*smiles* had another good night sleep last night. Working the afternoon shift really have it perks. I can sleep late and wake up late feeling refresh! Haha....even though I might not have a social life, but I guess afternoon shifts gives me more time for myself. So, I guess its all about striking a balance between morning shifts and afternoon shifts. In some ways, this is one of the advantages of working by staggered shifts.

Was playing my new Xbox game last night.....Jade Empire. Must say its really really good! It was from the makers of Star Wars: Knights of the old Republic - Bioware. I could really relate to it as the story line lies to something close to heart...chinese mythology. I was so immersed in the game last night I ended sleeping around 3am! One thing that I find kinda hilarious is that the names of the characters in the game is really cliched. I don't know why, but these western game developers always think that Chinese people must have a "title" to their name. The was....Furious Ming, Dawn Star, Sagacious Zu, Sun Li the Great Strategist.......funny right? Still, the game entertained me alot; especially with its though-provoking story line. It kinda surprised me as there were many twist and turns to the plot, somewhat of a Chinese serial drama! Anyway, I guess this game will keep me company until I get my hands on my new PC and the PS2 Slim......

Yes! You heard it right ladies and gentlemen! I'm getting a PS2 as well!!! Wahahahahaha....been thinking about it for quite sometime now and really excited to get one.

Oh, one thing I just remembered.....was working OT yesterday morning and I had this really......surreal call. A prepaid card customer called in. She wanted to check the balance on her card. And after advicing the card balance she had....

Me: Is there anything else I can do for you?
Customer: *giggles* well, not really...but can I know how old are you?
Me: *stunned* errr....well...
Customer: You have a very sweet voice. You sound really nice on the phone.
Me: Oh...thank you. Err...I'm 24 actually.
Customer: I see, you sound very sweet and boyish.
Me: (not knowing what to say or how to react) Thank you....... I appreciate it.
Customer: Welcome. Anyway, nice chatting with you. Bye!

Trust me.....I was left staring at the PC for a while. But after I recovered....I started laughing to myself. It a really funny moment as for the first time working in this line, a customer actually said anything of the sort to me. As a CSO, I guess we come across all kinds of people. The good, the bad and the weird.

Still, then again....for the call from that customer? It was really a pleasant surprise.

People....sigh

This is bad.

I haven't been updating my blog as religiously as I want to. Been seriously busy past few weeks and I can even see that the quality of my writing has deteriorated.

I was kinda happy that finally I was schduled to be working in the afternoon shift this week. I noticed whenever I worked in the afternoons, I tend to have more time to myself. Whenever I worked in the morning, I tend to sleep late and wake up early. However, as unfortunate as I can get, I was scheduled for a day of traning...and I had 2 days of morning shift. Shit.

Still, finally I manage to get some sleep last night and feeling abit more refreshed today. Kinda dreading to go to work. Used to be enthusiastic about it in the past....but I guess, the fire has died down. And not to mention, its not a motivating factor when you get wind that someone you know is resigning soon. It gets....dissapointing.

I find myself in the same dillemma months ago when another colleague resigned. When they break the news about resigning, they just seemed to happy and cheerful. On one hand, you are happy for them and wish them all the best. On another, you really feel sad and don't want them to leave. In the end, I usually find myself dumbstruck and don't know how to react to it. I never seem to find the right words and most of the time I either just keep quiet, smile....or I just go on repeating..."oh, thats good. happy for you. all the best".

Sigh, what can I do right? As poetic as it may sound.....Parting is such sweet sorrow.

On another note, work has been hell. I have a few troublesome cases that really keeps me up at nights. The other day I only answered 60+ calls in a day! On average, I would hit around 100+. It was really frustrating as I was chasing to hit my quota and target, while all these really idiotic customers keep on calling in. One thing I would like to highlight is that.....I can handle rude customers, I can handle arrogant customers, and I can even handle the screaming and shouting morons....but I can't handle plain STUPIDITY. I mean, I can't believe anyone can be that stupid and it just occurs to me that these people have totally no grey matter in their cranium.

Sometimes I feel like telling this customers....I can help you. I can help you if you can't calculate, I can help you if you can't read, I can't help you if you can't understand your bill. But I can't help you if you're just simply stupid. It gets really frustrating when you spend 30 minutes just to explain the dialling sequence of making an international call.

Then of course, there is this lady. This is one of the toughest customers I have came across. Why? Because she is simply too stubborn and too arrogant to accept any alternatives that I can provide. To put it bluntly...she was a BITCH. Cutting the long story short....she wants me to do the impossible for her own mistake. On my side, I have already bent the rules as far as I can go and I have also went over my head to assist her. But she simply just wasn't satisfied and wanted things her own way. I was on the line with her for more than an hour. And there was a point in the conversation I told her, "Ma'am, about your dispute, when you did not hear from us, why didn't you call in to enquire on it?". All she said was, "No news, is good news." I was like..........*&%$@%*!!!!! I took a deep breath.....and I just said to her... "Ma'am, by saying that; you're just trying to be difficult."

Some people just don't get it do they? I mean, its not like we as CSOs wanna make you're life difficult. We're not some sadist that enjoy getting scolded at or listening to customers rant. If we can do it, we would already have done it. No need to escalate it to a dispute. Plain logic. If we can give you what you want, we're happy, you're happy.

I was reading this article previously and it explains why humans are complicated and difficult to handle.

1. People think they are smarter than they really are.
2. People are intelligent, but not very honest.
3. Prone to trial and errors, but never admit to error.
4. People in general are helpful, but knowingly messed things up.
5. People are lazy, they try to invent shortcuts innocently.

In short, people are screwed up.

What makes us smile

Smile. A sincere, honest smile.

To smile is one of the most sacred and simple things in life that people take for granted.

Long have people asked my why do I used to love my ex they way I did. For almost 1 year after our seperation, I still loved her. My feelings for her are still as strong as the very first day I fell in love with her. It never wavered.

Yet, I could not find the answer to the question, "Why do I love her so much?". However, as time passed me by; as I started learning to let go, and carry on with life. I think I know the answer now......its the way she made me smile.

Have anyone ever touched you or made you feel like that? Sometimes, when the world all around you could be falling apart, but just knowing that one special person loves you, its more than enough. And just being who they are....makes you smile. The thought of her, the sight of her....will suffice. She did not need to do anything special or utter any sweet words to me... just being herself made me smile.

In many ways, what I want to say is that; we love the people we love because of how they make us smile. They make us feel good deep down inside and we let our guard down just for them. The feeling of being in the person's arms.....or just strolling around holding hands.....would set your mind at ease. The part I love about my ex the most was; whenever I were to give her a surprise, the look of joy in her face is simply precious. Up till this day, just thinking of how excited and cute she gets whenever I suprise her...brings a smile to my face.

Still, in regards to my ex....I can only bring myself to love her this much. It was really a wonderful time in my life to have been with her. And I am grateful to have atleast once experience such a wonderful feeling. I was deliriously in love......so I thought. In the end, she brought out the best in me, and also brought out the worst in me. She built a wonderful world around me.....only to bring it down.

Sigh....but thats not what I want to talk about today. What I am trying to put across is.....the weightless feeling of being in love. Deliriously in love. Sometimes when I see how much in love certain people are, I envy them. Just the look in their eyes tells how much in love they are. They always seem so cheerful, happy and there is always this bright aura surrounding them. And they can never seem to get enough of each other. They always want to be by the side of their loved ones.

To me, I feel that these people are so lucky. Personally, I don't want to get or find a girlfriend for the sake of having one. How I wish, I can also be as lucky and fall deliriously with love.

For now, I guess I only have to wait, and maybe one day I have something to smile about.