Happiness Denied

Okay......its been quite a while since I updated my blog. And to be honest, I'm in a foul mood.

So many things have happened during the past few days.

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Have anyone been denied something that they can't have? Have anyone been denied of the happiness that they have been seeking so tirelessly?

I can tell you from a personal perspective. Its hell.

Sigh....

I really don't know how to express myself. And I don't know what to say. Very simply.....I am just SAD.

Relationships are all f*cked up. Thats all I can say. When I manage to survive the torment and scars from my ex, I built a wall around my world and hope not be to hurt again. At one point, I was safe again.

But then thats the most screwed up thing about life. I was happy again, when suddenly I start to fall again for another person. But I know seriously in my heart that I am going to end up nowhere again. And I'm fine with picking up and moving on....since nothing happened anyway. But its the god-damn feeling of being vulnerable again. I just hate it.

Just the thought about being in a relationship really makes me feel insecure and all that crap.

Sigh....f*ck it...thats all for this post.