Inside Your Heaven

I've been down,

Now I'm blessed,

I feel a revalation coming around,

I guess its right,

So Amazing,

Everytime I see you I'm alive,

You all I've got,

The sun and the moon light,

All my dreams are in your eyes,

I want to be inside your heaven.

The words above came from a song from Bo Bice,....the American Idol finalist. Strangely, I can't seem to find any information as regards to this song in the Internet.

But after I heard this song.....it really struck a cord with me. It really made me feel that......its nice to be in love. Something which I have not felt in a long long time.... This song really made me remember the blissful days when I was in love and it really meant something to be loved by someone else.

Just the other day when I was cleaning my room, I stumbled across some notes my ex used to leave around the house for me. I wasn't really affected by the notes, but more of the signages of the notes. She would use words like darling, sweetheart, dear......And I was thinking, I really miss the feeling of being in a relationship. Its nice to hear someone calling you all those sweet nothings.

Also, I kinda miss all those stuff couples do together; grocery shopping, cooking, playing games, teasing each other..... sigh.

I sometimes do think will I ever be able to find love again. Will I be able to love someone with all my heart and want nothing else but her happiness. Then again, in my heart I feel I am not good enough for any girl out there.

But I guess that's my unicorn...my myth. Love is something I have gave up looking for long long time ago. I'll just let it come by itself....even if it comes.

But its nice isn't it? To be deliriously in love.